There are things that you do or things that happened because of things that you have done that you wish you could change. Everyone has these thoughts. I’ve had them and continue to have them. I wish I knew what I know now when I was in high school. I would have studied harder. Ditto for college, I would have changed my major. I “proudly” have a BA in Criminal Justice with a Sociology minor, that degree is as good as the toilet paper roll that hangs in the bathroom of my one bedroom apartment. I still would have gotten married and had kids and would probably still be divorced as well, so let’s just throw that out of the equation. I certainly would have stayed at my last job, the job that I was so soured on that I jumped out of the pot before it really came to a boil. I should have stayed until there was no more staying. Last, but not least, I would have been nicer to some people and meaner to some others, but on that I digress.
Why am I thinking of this right now? It stems from a conversation that I had yesterday with a friend and coworker centering around a certain person being a farce. It was more like a one sided conversation, he said it, I nodded my head in agreement. I knew this already, and my friends statement was a statement of fact, but when others start to notice these things the house of cards starts to shake and eventually it topples. His statement also took me back to my speaking to the employees that had assembled at our annual Christmas Party, I thought I made a pretty good speech, but I was totally full of crap and I knew it. How am I supposed to gear up for a push into greater financial growth for a company and myself when I have absolutely no faith in the abilities of our boss/owner? I like the guy and he had me fooled for about a year, but this is a house built on a sandy beach. I suppose that based on this knowledge, I will tie my shoes tighter and then hit it. I will also continue to shop my resume and look at other options that present themselves. There are a few out there.
The other things that I want to do, I am slowly getting back to doing. I’m painting, occasionally working out, I want to play golf more this spring/summer, I’ve met some new people that I like to hang out with, that sort of thing. I’m comfortable having nothing to do sometimes, but I also like the company of other people. I really want to take a vacation somewhere tropical, but we’ll see on that one.
Anyway, now that I’ve shot off my mouth, it doesn’t seem that important anymore. I guess that is why I keep writing in this blog. Cathartic I guess.
Have a nice night!
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Every one looks back and thinks about the what ifs of life..
I agree with you about our last job, I feel the same way. I left because I am a pussy and thought I was next on the list, as it turns out there was not "list" Just one guy who could not keep his wang in check.
What I am saying is I have so many things i would go back and change that it is silly for me to go over them unless I absolutely have to.
As for the Boss conversation, Don't put on you high waders and wait for the tsunami to come in and knock over the house of cards just yet. I stand by what I said about old Mario, and I meant it on more than one level. The fact is if he is alone in the office things grind to a halt any more, which means other people are doing far more than we thought, which if you think about it, is annoying, but is a move in the right direction.
Have you ever been driving a car going about as fast as you can and been passed by another car like you were standing still?
Allot of people first reaction would be to Push on the gas a little more so they don't feel so inept, and subsequently their over taxed little car groans, sputters, and makes allot of noise, but never catches up.
Reminds me of the position Mario is driving in lately.
Shit this was long enough to be my own post sorry
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